Tuesday, July 21, 2009


when I honestly reflect on my life, my future, my testimony, and REALLY look at myself, I want my Marriage to survive. I know I'm so wishy-washy, and I've probably scared a few of you away. But ... well, its worth saving. Isn't it? Even if he doesn't want to right now? I mean, when I think about what life COULD be like, I want that. I want the fairytale, the romance novel that's never been written. I want my daughter to have her Daddy and to have her Mommy love her Daddy. I know I deserve to be happy. I know he deserves to be happy. But I also know that if we started to save our marriage, it could be greater than I can even imagine now. I mean, it won't always be easy, but I think the good times and the love will make up for it. But I don't know how to save it. I wont win him back by begging. Or by pointing out his faults. I've tried both, I confess. Even if they were unintentional. Neither one works or is healthy. So how do I get from wanting to save it to actually saving it?

Friday, July 17, 2009

B's birthday preview

B's birthday party is soon, and since my brother and soon-to-be-sister-in-law are getting married the week before, I'm doing as much as I can to get ready for it now. I am trying to keep it as cheap as possible (aren't we all?) so the favors are from the dollar store or homemade. I made these chocolate suckers to include into the favor bags. There were sunflower molds, too, so I am thinking about making some for Sarah for the wedding, but I'm not gonna tell her, in case I don't get them done. She's gonna be my "poster-child" so I'm already doing a lot for it. I get to do her decorations, and her cake, and the bouquets/boutonnieres, and my mom's making her dress, the flower girl dress, and the bridesmaids dresses. and i get to use the pics of all of them for my business (mom's a "freelance" employee of my business, so i get to count the work as my business's. it's a great arrangement. ;c) ) as well as keep the supplies. It's a great arrangement for both of us. Anyway, here's the suckers:

see the bitten one? B. made me include it in the pics. I figured, what the heck, y'all can play "I spy" to find which one's broken. :c)

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Mary, Mary

I am so proud of this little patch of earth. This is my first year growing a garden. The first year I was married, I was in an apartment. Then I was VERY prego, Then ...well, I picked out the spot, but it never got tilled. Then the next year, I bought the seeds, but it never got tilled. And this year? There was no other person to till it and wait on to get it tilled, so I did it myself. With a shovel. For 2 days. I figured if I asked someone if they had a tiller, they either wouldn't, or I'd still be waiting. So it was worth it. And I got a nice tan... for about a day afterwards, darn fair complexion!

We were kind of late in planting it (had to find a day it wasn't freezing and it wasn't raining. There weren't that many days like that), but we got it in on memorial day weekend, which is the end of the recommended planting season. And don't pay attention to the patch of weeds to the right. I planted my garden in the "weed patch". It means for more weeding, but at least I'm using the space, and I'm not wasting yard space.

I've got beans and tomatoes in this front patch (the pic right above these words), with peppers (if they ever decide to pop up, they still don't show yet, so there probably ISN'T peppers), pumpkins, cucumbers, and squash behind them. (with a small onion patch behind them, but they havent come up yet, so maybe I dont get onions either.) the pumpkins are doing WELL, but the bugs got to the cucumbers, so I don't know if they'll survive (speaking of bugs, they apparently LOVE my beans, beets, and radishes. I was going to grow it all "organic" but I just couldn't do it. or I would have NOTHING. I figured non-organic was better than non-existent.) Then I have a row of beets, then lettuce, then more beets, then radishes (if there are any left) and carrots, and then 4 rows of peas (since they're B's favorite. but by the time we get any, she'll be so sick of her Grandpa's peas, she probably wont eat them. Grandpa is getting LOADS and LOADS of peas.) Don't tell "the man" but my pea supports are his garage light covers... they work beautifully, and if he doesn't come back, I doubt he'll want them. But if he does come back, I might get into trouble...

B's favorite part of the garden? Her "flowers." The Dandelions  Mom lets her pick them whenever she wants! How fun is that? ;c)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

More from the 4th

One of my friends likes to do a huge 4th of July party every year, and this year was a blast.

B. had tons of fun with her friend D. Those two can play for hours and hours without any problem. He is such a gentleman when he's with her. Its so funny. He'll do anything for her, and, of course, she lets him and takes advantage of it. But he does it so willingly! He'll get whatever she needs, he'll push her on the swings, and he'll keep her safe from any bullies or bigger kids. She loves it. And he's an awesome kid.

They had LOADS of fireworks. B. and D. Loved it. D. got tired, and so his mom took him home, and B. got bored after that, so we took her home, too. the fireworks went on way after we left, I'm sure.

we went home and did some fireworks of our own. (I'm still waiting for pics, so I guess you'll just have to imagine those...)

Monday, July 13, 2009

And without further ado...

The Parade!

We traveled to a bigger town for the parade (I love being in a rural community, we can travel and take part in all of these community events and it all feels close!) and every community is welcoming! The parade was busy!!! It was crowded when we showed up, and we were early!

Most kids get lots of candy, too, but she's much too nice. She lets all the big kids take 'em from her. And then she shares with the little kids. And on top of that, she doesn't like taffy, and that's the candy of choice for parades. She did, however, like the floats. Here's some of our favorites:

(The horse-poo gatherers... the sign on the side says "WARNING: obey your parents or you will do this next year!!)

(this float was a hoot! You can't see it well in the picture, but there's watter spraying out of the tub, and when the toilet lifts up (it goes up and down), a stream of water shoots out of it, too. and the kids have water balloons. )
(I thought this was ironic because this soldier's plaque says "honor." my recent experience with soldiers (ok. one soldier) is that honor means little. and so does loyalty. Now, I love the military, being a military brat myself, but ... well, your perspective can get thrown out of whack with something like this.)

(you can never go wrong with a star wars float. Or Jedi's fighting behind it.)

We saw quite a few friends. Some sat next to us. Their little girl's so cute!

Common "mystakes" on my blog:

I confess that although I loved grammar and spelling while I was in school (no, really, I did. I am a weirdo), I am quite terrible at both now. So things you will often see wrong in my posts:

  • Capitalization! Both for words like "I," "I'm," and I'll" and at the beginning of sentences.
  • The second letter will be capitalized when I actually remember to capitalize. Especially if it's an O or an N. So words like "SO" or "NOw," and words like "ANd."
  • The word think. I end up typing thingk. Repeatedly.
  • The w always tries to jump ahead in my words, like "hwo" or "nwo." My H's have the opposite problem; it's usually "taht" and "waht."

Thursday, July 9, 2009

I'm always a little behind...

(The title of this blog entry comes from my grandmother's fridge. She has a little magnet with a "tush" on it, with that saying... I always thought it was hilarious. 'Course I was, like, six when I first saw it, so maybe it's the childishness shining through...or nostalgia. That's it, it's nostalgia.)

Anywho, the pics are causing a little delay... Mom put me to work separating peas from their pods (LOTS AND LOTS OF PEAS! I was seeing green circles everywhere I looked for quite a while afterwards... and scratching like crazy, since I've now got about 5 mosquito bites from sitting outside) And fixing her sergers (all 3 of them) and then Sarah and Jake took mom and I to town to check out the wedding site and run some decorating brainstorms (did I mention that I get to do LOADS of fun stuff for their wedding?) and go shopping with them for her bridal fabrics (She's so funny. She defers to me on almost everything. I mean, she has her opinions, but she looks to me for confirmation of those opinions. It's like I need to filter the selections into 2 or three choices and then she can pick from those. And she and I have such similar tastes, even if we show them very differently. Also, I have a... a talent, I guess, for sticking to a theme. I know what blends well with what is already selected and what the bride would like. That's part of why I got into this business.) Anyway, I didn't have time to update my blog at Mom's house before I had to come back for work, so she's emailing them to me, which will take a while! Man, if I just had my own camera! All I've got is my phone (which actually works out pretty well. That's where all of the previous pics are from). I'm saving up though.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Local Fireworks

I think that 4 (ok, almost 4) is the perfect age to enjoy fireworks! She loved them. And every single one of them was "wonderful. Oh, wonderful!" We brought Grandma with us, and that made it even more fun.

Last year, she was terrified. she'd watch them, but she was in my lap and holding on for dear life. this time, there were oohs and ahhs, and wonderfuls, and such.

I had to work from 6:30-7:30, then we grabbed a bite to eat at the dear old Wendy's (their toys are always soooooooooo stupid! What's a 3 year old going to do with a computer disk? Especially while she's watching fireworks! And their 3-and-under toys are always stupid little frogs (which we already have... but I digress). We picked the perfect time to go to Wendy's, because it was pouring rain! We were worried it'd ruin the festivities. I think it actually helped (not as many people as there would have been otherwise, great for the firefighters, and pyrotechnitians), and it didn't rain on us while we were there. It meant the ground was a little wet and the air was a little brisk, but welcome to Idaho! Especially this year.

anyway, here are some of my favorite shots:

Stay tuned, 'cause there's more fun tomorow!

Friday, July 3, 2009

Fourth of July

This is my favorite holiday! I love it because...
  1. I love red white and blue.
  2. It's the last holiday before my birthday.
  3. I'm an Air Force daughter and an (ex?) Armyman's wife.
  4. My family's always been patriotic.
  5. There's something about being all joined together supporting the same thing. Everyone's proud to be an American, even if tomorow they forget that they are.
  6. It's (usually) nice and warm (this time wasn't so warm) so it's great for outdoor parties, and picnics, and swimming, and watermelon seed contests, and hamburgers, and staying up late, and gabbing and hanging out with friends.
  7. We really do have an amazing life in America, and I am proud to be an American.