Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Part 2: Who Needs Sleep?

Well, that was the end of taking pity on him, he didn't need it any more. After Wednesday's institute, he started texting me. By Friday, he had convinced me to let him come over after work (which seemed much longer until I looked at the calender and realized that was only 2 days...). I told him he could come over, but we had to stay outside, because B was at a sleepover. No Chaperones. You know, I had to play it safe, I'd barely met this guy a few days ago! Everyone I'd asked about him had said that he was super quiet. And I could tell he was quiet, but that didn't stop us. We didn't have a single awkward moment. We talked until 3. And I had a meeting at 6 in the morning! I honestly cant remember what we talked about. But I do remember it was cold. He put his arm around me to warm me up, it was sweet. Strategic, but sweet. 

I still wasn't sure what I thought about him, though. I was impressed, I liked his sincerity, but I was still far from being convinced. I actually have a big list of why NOT to like him written in my journal (Remind me NEVER to let him see that...), and how he would make a great friend, but I wasn't so sure of a relationship. I could see so many flaws in that idea. For fear of leading him on, I'd tell him how I felt on a regular basis. And he was okay with it. He was okay with the fact that he liked me more, and it didn't scare him away, or make him try harder (than normal...), he'd just understand, and appreciate what he could get. One day he asked how I felt, and I said I respected him. Which was true. I know it wasn't the answer he was was looking to hear, but it was the truth, and I'm not one to beat around the bush. The funny thing is, I  could tell he liked that answer more than if I'd said anything else. He sort of smiled his natural, pensive smile, and said that respect was a good place to be at. And it  was true. Respect was a good place to be at. 


to be continued...

2 comments:

  1. Thnaks for shareing. I get so buisy with life that some times (OK probly most of the time) I don't get to do the things I want to do (like viset with friends). This way I feel a little connected.

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  2. "MAK," ;c) I hear ya! I would MUCH rather spend ALL my time talking to friends! I love facebook and blogs because I can do them and other things at the same time and "feed the need!"

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