Friday, September 28, 2012

Two Words...

cant wait!!!

Seriously, I'm soo excited for this movie! I read the book in high school. I loved it then. And the singing! I've got soundtracks from this movie, and honestly, most of them are not sung well. But the singing in even this first look... I am ecstatic!

Saturday, September 8, 2012


I was staring at a fairly-blank post and trying to figure out what to say, but my friend just called and needs a mommy vacation, so I'm going to go have fun instead. So, sorry, y'all gotta wait, I'm gonna go live my life instead of write about it.


Thursday, September 6, 2012

What I Stand For

Still reflecting on what is worth standing up for in this life. I know this post is mostly for me right now, but I'll share it anyway.

  • I stand for my daughter's rights. I stand for her best interest. She is my strength, and I can be hers. She is the only reason I need to stand up. Her well-being and her childlike love are enough.
  • I stand for justice, although I also stand for mercy.
  • I stand for marriage. Even being divorced, and so grateful for divorce, I stand for unity and working things out. And because I stand for it, and have lived the other, I stand for equality and healthy relationships.
  • I stand for truth, even if it hurts. I'd rather know where I stand with someone than be told lies. Even if that person doesn't like me. I also have no respect for a person who looks shiny on the outside but inside their jar is empty. 

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Today I Stand Up

I've spent the last few days thinking about strength. And trees. And determination. It's been an interesting revelation for me. My life seems to go by unit studies, but the unit study in my life is rarely about the life cycle of plants or the letter A. My unit studies are more often titled, "The Difference Between Love and Enabling," and "God's Parenting: Responsibility vs. Blame." Well, the unit study in my life this past week would be entitled, "The Oak and the Currant Bush: Strong Trees Still Grow."

My favorite poem, The Oak Tree by Johnny Ray Ryder, Jr. has come to the forefront of my mind a lot in recent days. And every time it does, I hear my good friend Missy's response when I shared it with her. She told me that I was the oak tree. I guess it stuck with me because although I've always admired the tree in the poem and wished I was strong enough to say bring it on, I never really thought I was. I don't think I believed her when she told me, either. So, as the poem kept coming to mind, and as Missy's words were right there with it in my brain, I asked myself why it was such an anomaly to me. And I realized, strength isn't in withstanding the storms. Strength is GROWING IN THE STORMS. In all the pain and suffering I've been through, I've never said "Bring it on!" I've been too busy saying, "Ow, this hurts!"

And then I thought of another favorite anecdote. I first came across the story of the Currant Bush in Seminary. I remember Brother W., with tears in his eyes, looking at all of the students and saying, "It will hurt now, but you will be so much better for it." It will hurt now. And it does. But a true hero doesn't just stay a victim. A true hero doesn't cower from the pain. A true hero DOES something about it. I think that's been the final chapter in my unit study: What is a hero.

I've been reading The Autobiography of Benjamin Franklin (Dover Thrift Editions)  and reflecting on how all the great men in history stood up. The only reason we know who they are is that they were willing to change the system. I have been asking myself if I'd ever be willing to do that. And I still don't know. But I do know one thing: In The Avengers, there is one moment I knew where I stood. Loki, the super-villain is preaching to a cowering crowd about how mankind liked to be ruled, how mankind was a coward. And there was one man that stood up. One person in a crowd full of people. And I knew, if it ever came down to it, I would be that one person. I would stand up and say, "No. This is not acceptable, and I will stand." That man knew he'd probably die for his actions, but he did it anyway. And so have all of the great names in history. They knew the risks, and they did it anyway.