And what if I bomb it? Am I proving the judge right? Will I have to resign myself to going back to school and actually getting a teaching degree, just to exercise my rights to teach my child as I see fit? Will the judge pull an "I told you so?"
And why on earth did I pick June? Yes, it's the best month to prove my abilities before next year while still giving me time to study, but it's also the month of garden crunch-time, yard crunch-time, family shifts after public school lets out, soccer practices, and I'm STILL trying to spring clean (maybe by now I should call it year-long clean? I'm on the last room, though. At least, upstairs. That should count for something).
But, I have studied (and I didn't study for the ACT in high school and didn't fail), and I ate a balanced dinner, and have a perfect menu written up for breakfast tomorrow. I have taken a few practice tests (we won't talk about them, they make me nervous). And now I'm relaxing and zening out to music. I'm about to have Ranger give me a blessing and then get into bed. I even picked out my outfit and collected my number 2's. Am I missing something? Oh yeah. Pray really hard. And trust...I always forget that one in a crisis. I felt that this was what I should do. God's on my team. Guess it's time to let go.
Good night, world. Tomorrow will be a threshold to a new chance.